Tuesday, December 30, 2008
We also learned to never try anything new in a different place. We decided to stop swaddling the girls and it was rough. They had a tough time sleeping. Also with daddy not staying with us, we had stand in night time help. Grandma Elaine helped one night and Papa Dale helped the other. Papa was good, except he broke the first rule of helping. He lost a pacifier. NEVER lose the pacifier, especially at night. I did forgive him because it was 3am.
Anyway, it was a great holiday! The girls are meeting so many milestones. Gracie is starting to roll from front to back! Lizzie is grabbing things. They both are eating their cereal and love it! It helps that we mix it with juice! See the slide show below of our fun time.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Fortunately, it was a great night. It was really warm and we were able to walk right up. There was another family leaving as we drove up. I walked up to him with Lizzie and Wes asked if he could handle two. He thought he could. The girls did really well. When we went to take the girls from Santa, both had grabbed Santa's beard. We had to untangle their hands and leave Santa. Of course, I was more excited than the girls.
Lizzie wasn't so sure in this one
It was only slightly better in this one.
We also had a special present under the tree the other day......
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
The only thing that we weren't ready for was the NICU time. We spent four nights in the hospital to be close to the girls. We were there for almost every feeding. To get a change of scenery, Wes would take me in the wheel chair and take me on tours of the hospital. He wheeled me all over that place. We would go visit the night nurses in antepartum that treated me.
After I was discharged, I would go up in the morning right before lunch and then come home. Wes would get home from work at 3:00 (after he would go in at 6:00am) so we could go back up for the 5:00 and 8:00 feeding. I would pump in between in the "pump room" at the hospital. That was not fun either because I always worried that someone would walk in on me.
It was hard going to the hospital every day and seeing other mommies and daddies take their babies home while we had to leave ours there. We knew it was the best for the girls, but I would cry and pray every night that soon I would take them home. It was a very rough time for us. Those little girls kept us worried too. They were hooked up to monitors that would go off when the girls would forget to breathe. It was so scary. We spent one evening there just watching Gracie's monitor go off every couple of minutes. Wes refused to leave. He had blood shot eyes and would just watch. I finally told him I couldn't take it anymore and was hurting from my c-section and we went home. We did learn a lot about caring for the girls from the nurses. We knew what to look for as issues and how to deal with them.
Anyway, the best thing is that the girls are home and growing big. Every day is exciting and exhausting. Hopefully, tonight they will let us sleep and not wake up. They are still not feeling well from the ear infections, but are better.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Even though the girls are doing better, I can't keep Grandma away. She and Papa are on their way now to help with the girls. I really appreciate my parents and that they are close enough to help us. With two girls and working full time, it's good to have them close.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Today, Lizzie at around 1:00 got a fever. Wes went back to the kiddie urgent care and found out that Lizzie had an ear infection in the same ear as Gracie. She's doing better than Gracie because we caught her's quicker. So, Lizzie has been sleepy all day.
On top of the ear infection, both girls now have colds. So, tomorrow I get to take a day off of work to stay home with two cranky sick babies. I feel sorry for the girls because I know it must hurt. They look at us like we should fix it and we can't.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
On my way to work, I decided to rear-end someone and ended up totaling the car. I called Wes and he freaked. He turned around, came and got me. He told the police that he was taking me to the hospital and I was pregnant.
We got to the hospital and as I was being checked into the ER (my first trip ever), the cop came and gave Wes a lecture and told him to calm down. It was kind of funny. He told Wes that he couldn't imagine how he would react in the delivery room.
They took me back to a room and checked me out. They did a pregnancy test and told me it was positive. Wes and I didn't believe their test and asked to do a second blood test. They did it and it was positive again! We were so excited. While I was in the ER, I had called the doctors office and told them about the accident. Later that day, they called to check on me and said I was the third person they had that day (who did a blood test) to have a car accident. Anyway, I was able to tell the nurse that I was pregnant. It usually worked the other way around..... It was a crazy and exciting day!
There were two good things that day. I was pregnant and we were able to buy a new bigger car for the girls.....
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
We had a doctor's appointment yesterday and the girls are getting so big! Lizzie is 12lbs and Gracie is 11lbs 7oz. They got a shot and spit up all over Daddy and I. We are getting bad about remember all our baby supplies when we go places. We left the diaper bag in the car so Wes had to run out to get it while I waited with two babies in diapers! They were very cute and started sucking on each others hands.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Last night both girls decided to wake up at 2am then 3am then again at 4am. What fun!..... We are trying a new night time feeding schedule in an effort for Melissa and I to get some more sleep. We are now feeding them at 8pm then again at 11pm. We are hoping the girls will last until 5 am. That will give us 5 1/2 hours of sleep in a row!
The girls have their December Synagis shot today. Melissa and I are going to take the opportunity to ask Dr. Jim a bunch of questions.
Friday, November 28, 2008
For Thanksgiving, we had lots of people here. It was really fun to see everyone. Today we celebrated my birthday with a dinner out with the family. Chris, Angie, and Kassidy were even there!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving number two. Grandma Susie and Dick are coming. It should be fun!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Melissa is off of work this week for Thanksgiving, so she is staying home with the girls. I unfortunately have to work, so they are picking me up for lunch today. On Wednesday we are making our second trip to Oklahoma with the girls. We are going to try to drive in the afternoon instead of waiting until after the girls 8pm feeding. It may be a nightmare... or they could sleep, which will mean they will be up all night. We will be having Thanksgiving dinner at Grandma Elaine's house. Grandma and Grandpa Potter are coming too! Should be a great weekend.
Monday, November 17, 2008
While they were here, Gracie decided to roll over when grandma wasn't looking. Grandma put Gracie in the crib on her belly turned her back for a second then turned around again and Gracie was on her back! Both girls are getting so strong! Lizzie is getting so chatty. She likes to talk all the time and tell us everything.
These girls are so wonderful!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
When the girls first came home from the NICU, we were so tired waking up every three hours to feed them. It would take about an hour to warm bottle, feed, pump, and then back to sleep for about 2 hours then back up a again. One night, Wes turned to me and said "I don't know how I'm going to be able to do this", I said back, "Who else it there to do it?". We got through and now the girls are so big (to us anyway)! We had alot of help in the beginning.
Lizzie now at 5 months
Gracie at birth then
Gracie now at 5 months
Friday, November 7, 2008
Well Nanny/Granny, what ever she wants to be called, (my mom) came into town last night. Her flight was delayed by about 4 hours and I had to pick her up around midnight. She is watching the girls today and is almost giddy about it. I asked her if she will be ok with the girls and she said yes.... I'll ask her again this evening... I expect a different answer LOL. Great-grandma (my grandma) , Great Aunt Sherry, Grandma and Grandpa Potter (my other grandparents) Papa (Melissa's dad), Grandma Elaine (Melissa's Mom - yes Elaine I know you hate that name! haha) , Laura, Paul, Sydney and Sam are coming in tomorrow for the girls baptism on Sunday. Should be a blast!....
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Gracie is 4 lbs 1.3 oz
Lizzie was gassy today. She also slept through breast feeding 2 times. The lactation consultat came and helped for one. She didn't really do anything different than what I did. It also turns out the infection in Gracie's eye is e coli. Also, 5 of the babies in the step down are MRSA positive. So, we all sweat to death to see our babies. Both girls are doing well. Lizzie is taking her 4 bottles a day and does well with the bottle. The breast is a little harder. Gracie is close to being able to take the bottle or the breast. Hopefully, Lizzie will click soon and it won't take Gracie long after. Once the girls get home, we won't really have to worry about the staph infection anymore. They will be just normal girls.
Friday, July 4, 2008
Gracie is 3 lbs 15.8 oz
Lizzie is now up to bottles every other feeding. She and Gracie have both tested positive for MRSA. That means Wes and I have to put on yellow gowns and gloves. It make us hot. I tried to breast feed Lizzie and she was too sleepy to try. Gracie tried an open crib today but got too cold and moved back to her isolet. They will try her again in a couple of days.
I asked today how long until the girls go home. It looks like a couple more weeks. We also saw my friend Brandi in the NICU. She delivered yesterday. Hopefully, tomorrow Gracie will be 4 lbs! On Monday, she gets to try the bottle again!
We left the hospital early today so we could go see fireworks. We met our friends the Halsteads in the Catholic church parking lot with my parents to watch. It was nice to get away. We have been so consumed by the girls and trying to get them home.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Gracie is 3lbs 14 oz
I didn't get to breast feed today. Lizzie got cold over night and had to be put under the warmer. They did some blood tests and she did not have an infection. They also tested for MRSA. We will find out later if she has it. She started to pep up after I changed her at 11:30 am diaper change. She was pretty sleepy for her bottle from Wes but she still got a lot of her bottle.
Gracie had a couple of apnea and brady spells. One she recovered on her own and the other they had to give her oxygen. Her grandma held her today after she took forever to change her diaper and clothes. Gracie ended up peeing on her clothes because grandma took so long.
Both girls are getting bigger and their faces are filling out. Both Wes and I are ready for them to come home.
The lab screwed up the swabs so all the babies had to be re-swabbed. So, we have to wait another day on the MRSA results.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Gracie is 3 lbs 12.4 oz
The girls are 3 weeks old today! Lizzie gets cultured again tomorrow to see if her MRSA has cleared up. The speech therapist checked while Wes was feeding and he did fine. Lizzie took most of her bottle and took 7 cc from me while on the breast. She is going great.
Gracie had a couple of episodes of bradys and apnea. She will try the bottle again on Monday with the speech therapist. Gracie is still trying to regulate her temperature and had to have her bed warmed a little. She is getting close to coming out. Once she gets a bit bigger, she will be ready. Hopefully, she will hit 4 lbs soon.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Gracie is 3 lbs 11.8 oz
Gracie came back negative for MRSA. They are still slowly lowering her temperature to get her out of the isolet. Both girls started vitamins. Tomorrow, Gracie gets evaluated by a speech therapist for feeding. Lizzie had her today and did well. She took most of her bottle and showed all the signs of being ready.
At Lizzie's 8:30, we tried again on the breast. It was a pain. I have to wear an apron and gloves so it makes it really difficult and hot. I'm paranoid the whole time. I hate it. I hope it gets better when she gets home.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Gracie is 3 lbs 10.6 oz
The girls are 34 weeks today. Gracie was taken off caffeine. She is being left on her own to see how she does. She is doing well on her temperature. She is now just barely warmer than the room outside her isolet. We may try a bottle again on Wednesday.
She is now up to 3 bottles a day. However, we found out today that she has MRSA. It's in her eye and shows up as goop. She has been on antibiotics for 2 days now. We have to wear special yellow plastic gowns and gloves. It's hotter than heck wearing them. We have to do it until she is discharged. Wes and I hope it's soon.
Both girls are suppose to see the speech therapist, but she is on vacation. The hospital is suppose to get someone else. Hopefully, they will. The doctor thought that Lizzie would leave before Gracie.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Gracie is 3lbs 9oz
We tried breast feeding Lizzie for the second time. She took 4cc of milk. She is getting bigger every day. We went to their 11:30, 2:30, and 8:30 feeding. We tried the breast again at 8:30 again. Wes did the 11:30 feeding with a bottle. We also gave Lizzie a bath for the first time. Gracie is still to little for us to give a bath. The nurses can do it faster so she is not out of the isolet that long.
Gracie was good. She had a couple of desat spells but recovered on her own. She is getting bigger. She stayed awake while Wes held her yesterday. He held her three times.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Gracie is 3lbs 8oz
Lizzie breast fed for the first time today. She took 15cc and then had the rest through the tube. She took over half her bottle in the evening from Wes. She was moved to an open crib.
Gracie is still on caffeine to help with her bradys. The doctors will revisit later this week to see when she will come off. She has had some spells but recovered on her own. To be moved to an open crib, she has to be about 1800 grams. That's about 4 lbs
While the girls were in the NICU, one of the nurses suggested keeping a journal of my thoughts, feeling, and events for the girls. I decided to back date the blog and transfer those journal entries to this blog.
Just some back ground. My pregnancy was pretty uneventful until about the last month or two. I was diagnosed with placenta previa, one of the girl's (Twin A, Lizzie) placenta was over my cervix. Because you can't deliver the placenta before the baby, I was guaranteed a c-section and it's very dangerouse because the mother and baby (or in my case babies) can bleed out. This usually goes away in most people and my OB told me she was almost sure it would move. The perinatalogist wasn't so sure. He kept telling me it may not.
Anyway, around week 24 the placenta hadn't moved and I was put on modified bed rest. The perinatalogist told me that one night I would wake up in a puddle of blood and I would have 30 minutes to get to the hospital. I was going to the ob or peri every other week for sonos and checkups. Each time my bed rest became closer and closer to hospital bed rest. I was guaranteed hospital bedrest at 32 weeks (if I could make it until then) until I delivered or 36 weeks whichever came first. During all this, my OB went on maternity leave. She kept telling me she would be back to deliver, but I would see one of her partners in the meantime. I guess she needs a new crystal ball.
At 30 weeks and 5 days (a Friday), the dog woke Wes and I up at 11:50. I got up and went to the rest room while Wes put the dog out. I was doing my business when I felt something different. I looked in the toilet and saw blood. I calmly told Wes I needed to go to the hospital and ran to find clothes. We jumped in the car, I called my parents, and Wes drove 100 mph to the hospital. I was worried about the girls, but I felt them both kicking me so I knew they were ok. Three things worked for us, prayer, no cops and no traffic on I-635.
We got to the hospital and I pushed the after hours button, told them I was bleeding, 30 weeks pregnant with twins. They buzzed me in and we got in the elevator to go upstairs. When we got to the nurses station, they didn't have any rooms so I stayed in triage for most the night. They had to call the on call nurse to take care of me. They gave me turbutiline to help stop the contractions. This drug would make my heart race and me shake. It was awful. The next thing that happened was my blood pressure dropped. They put me in what they call trendelenburg position (pretty much me standing on my head in the bed). I was on heart monitors for the girls and a monitor for the contractions. Gracie really hated the monitor, she would kick it and then move as soon as they placed it.
They called the on call OB to see me. I think they were trying to decide if I would stop bleeding, stop contracting, or should they take the girls. They gave me my first of two steroid shots anyway. I didn't get any pain meds because they hadn't decided what they were going to do. Either I was at peace or too stupid to know to be scared. Wes of course was scared for both of us. The nurse had to ask him to sit down because he was making her nervous. Somewhere in the middle of all this my parents arrive. They are the best parents and are always there for us.
After about 7 hours of contracting, shaking, and pain. I was finally moved to an antepartum room where I was suppose to stay until 36 weeks. They put me on magnesium sulfate which is a terrible drug. It makes you feel like you have the flu. Sweaty, dry mouth, feverish, and yucky all over. I was so hot that the room was set at 50 degrees and I was still sweating with a fan on me. I was on this for 36 hours and I was on a liquid diet for the entire time.
As soon as I was off the mag, we found ants in my room so I was moved to another room. This room had the construction elevator right outside the window. So every morning at 7:00 am I heard the workers start their day. From the mag, I went to a pump that gave me the turbutiline constantly. It was like I was on speed for 2 days before I got use to it. The lady had to come twice to show me how to work the pump because I was so heavily medicated.
I couldn't sleep at night while I was in the hospital and slept during the day. I remember being worried about my hair and wanting to get it cut. I had lined out my stylist to come to the hospital to cut it later in the week. By Wednesday (32 weeks and 3 days), I was tired of the hospital TV and bored. I was very weepy that day and cried almost all day. I also had weird contraction all that day. I had been contracting since I had arrived at the hospital off and on. I sent my mom and dad to eat dinner outside of the hospital because my mom hadn't left my side for any length of time. I ate my dinner and went to the rest room. Again, I started bleeding. Wes hit the nurse call and within seconds I had about 5 nurses in my room. They called the OB on call. I remember hearing one of the nurses, "tell her to get here right away". It turns out the same doctor on call was the one that was on call the night I came in. I could tell she was thinking about her options, but was going to take the girls.
As soon as she made her decision, the nurses got to work. They tried to get an IV in me but my veins were not cooperating. It took about 10 minutes to get it in and finally the anesthesialogist had to put it in. They got me in the OR, put the spinal in, and laid me on the table. It was very hot in the room because the girls were so premature (usually for c-sections it's very cold). Wes was dying in his "bunny suit" (surgical scrubs). They told me I was going to feel pressure and within minutes, they said Twin A was out. It was Lizzie, she was only making gurgling noise and had to be intubated. They then said that Gracie was going to be more difficult and then a minute later I heard her cry. Because they were working on Lizzie I only got to see Gracie briefly. They were both rushed to the NICU and I was sent to recovery.
Of course I don't remember much because they gave me the "happy juice" and I was out. I woke up hours later watching one of our good friend from church helping Wes move me to a postpartum room. I didn't get to see the girls that night because I was so heavily medicated and anemic. I saw them at 8:00 the next morning. They were so beautiful to me.
Wes and I spent the next 4 days wandering the halls of the hospital. Seeing the girls for feedings and then taking walks around to pass the time. We weren't able to hold the girls for about 72 hours because of their prematurity. It was a very difficult time. My hormones were raging and I was crying all the time. We went home after 4 days but it would be another 5 weeks before the girls joined us. It's very sad to watch all the other mothers go home with a baby and to walk out knowing you had to come back worried about your tiny babies.
Anyway, the following post are about the NICU time. I didn't start right way. I started writing after the girls were there 17 days. They ended up staying 40 days in the NICU. I was up at the hospital about 3 times a day and trying to recover from the c-section. It was really rough.